In a complete different aspect of my life, the stress level still hasn't gone down. I feel like I have so much to do but I am being torn in so many directions, and I just don't know how to prioritize. I quit one of my two jobs yesterday in hopes to give me a little bit more time to focus on school. Unfortunately, the job I quit was the job where I only worked four hours a week so it isn't even like it was much time taken out of my schedule, but I just couldn't do it anymore.
I had an epiphany last night (I think I have this epiphany like twice a month, but hopefully it sticks this time). I am sick of pleasing everyone but myself. I'm sick of being held to such high standards that are completely impossible for me to fill. It is time I start worrying about me, and not so much what others think of me or what others want from me. I am one person and only one person, I can't do it all, and I can't be there for everyone. I think its the sense of feeling needed. I like to feel needed just like everyone else does, but sometimes that needing to be needed gets in the way of my needs.
I have no money right now which is always a stress in my life. I'm not sure how I am going to pay next months rent, I really need a roommate. It would be great to have someone share all my expenses with me.
Unfortunately, I have to cut this short. I have to be up in five hours to initiate 19 fantastic, beautiful new babies. So goodnight to all, and be on the lookout for shooting stars. There have been a lot lately.
live, laugh, love
-- peace --
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